I want a spirit-led life.

By this I mean capital-S Spirit and lowercase-s spirit. I want to listen to that still, small voice inside me the way I do at Friends meeting, when I go and when I can settle down enough to quiet my brain and really center. I want it to dictate my actions and my priorities, because when I listen to the World, I get pulled in infinite different directions. When I listen to that voice, I focus on one thing at a time. Life runs in slow motion and I feel each action’s gravity, each moment’s pregnancy, and I savor it. I think life is meant to be lived as much this way as possible. I think God (in whatever form God may exist) wants us to cherish this gift.

I want a passionate life. I want my life to be full of that fundamentally human spark that drives us to pursue love fiercely, create with abandon, and forget our fears for even as little as ten minutes at a time. And slowly I want to stretch that ten minutes into twenty, and then twenty-six, and then nineteen (hey, I’m human), but finally into an hour at a time, and then longer. I want a life that makes me so happy to live it that I can’t wait to get out of bed.

I want my candle to shine. Have you ever been to a Christmas Eve service where the congregation lights candles while singing “Silent Night”? One candle doesn’t do much in the way of illumination, but a churchful of candles can light the entire sanctuary in a way that makes everything seem softer, more beautiful, more lovable. We should all look at one another, I would like to think, as if we are more lovable than perhaps we are. And I certainly see the person beside me better when her candle is lit and shining in front of her than when it is hidden under the pew. Our passions have the power to make us beautiful and integral. It takes each one of those candles to form that powerful moment.


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